I am not prone to sensationalism and like to consider both sides and all angles, but I am aghast at how Brexit is being dealt with  - there seems to be a loss of democracy in this country – courtesy of Parliament and aided by political commentators.

It is almost like there is a bubble which includes Parliament and political commentators – and this bubble exists in isolation to the rest of the general population. We are being led by personal bias and not facts, scaremongering, and condescension. We are also observing such a lack of respect between politicians, between the media and politicians and even the media and the public. What happened to courtesy?

We all have opinions but we need to keep our dignity. When expressing our views we should do it with integrity, honesty and respect.  And including Brexit in our Prayers is likely to be a good move too....

​So the exploration began. As a complete Christian and Bible novice I decided that reading the Bible was the best way forward. I started at Genesis at the beginning of the Old Testament and read right through to the end of the New Testament –  all completed in one month. I then found out that I should have started with the New Testament and can totally see that now! I found the Old Testament quite shocking and violent and sometimes wondered if I was reading the correct book… but now I can see how it all fits in and the appropriateness of it. But oh the New Testament is such a breath of fresh air!

Just before completing the Bible, I attended church for the first time. I was a church novice. Other than school and formal occasions such as weddings I had never been to church. So I went, on my own, to my local church of Anglo-Catholic denomination. It was here I had a huge shock. Not at the functionality or content of the church service, but at how few the congregation was. I suppose I had been aware of dwindling participants from the media – but really – as few as this? However the ‘few’ were friendly and made me very welcome. I also noticed the mature age demographics – where are the young people? No young people equals eventually no church – this worried me. 

After around a month I started wondering what other churches were like… got a bit curious! So hit Google and researched a lot of local churches – wow there are so many! Anyhow thought I would try a Pentecostal style church…  On reflection I could probably not have chosen such an extreme opposite to the Anglo-Catholic church I was attending. I was very impressed with how friendly everyone was, and I was welcomed wholeheartedly. There were also a lot of people - the place was full – and with varying age groups including children. However, horses for courses and all that and I really was not sure it was ‘me’. So the search continued. I then spied the local Methodist Church via the services of Google – and headed down on the following Sunday. This was far more inline with my Anglo-Catholic church but different at the same time… And if there was a competition for friendliness and inclusiveness, this church would win it! So my life was now slightly more confusing as I decided to attend both churches - every Thursday Anglo-Catholic Mass, and most Sundays the Methodist Church. This also involved attending all accompanying events at both churches such as Bible study, fellowship etc.. I was very very busy… but happy…..

Welcome to my blog!  Will keep this brief as probably only important to me… Have been Agnostic all my life and believed everything had to be proved by science to be true. Then some years ago I delved into New Age Spirituality – never really fitted in – but did make me realise my previous scientific beliefs may not have been the whole story.

​I felt things – crystals seem to be more than just rocks and you could feel energy moving during Reiki. I saw colours – where did they come from?  So my mind was now open to the idea that perhaps there are things we do not know or understand. Life is not so straightforward or scientific as I thought..

My first adult Christian experience was in 2015 when my husband, daughter and I went on a Christian ski holiday to Austria. We were accepted as non-Christians and we were all amazed at how caring everyone was. Whilst we never intended to, we attended nightly Bible study classes whilst there. This made me realise how very little I knew, and also how I ‘wished’ I could be a Christian too. One of the leaders actually sent me a Bible after we got home – I think he sensed how I felt.  The time was obviously not right and I am ashamed to say I never read a page.

I am not sure if I had a ‘real’ calling or not – I am guessing it was – but then I think maybe I just decided it was - or am I thinking too much into this. Anyhow I was involved in community activities with the local church when one such activity was to no longer be connected to the church. When I found out I felt emptiness in my heart, and it is this emptiness that led me to believe I had a calling. 

So the exploration began